dragonxero666

Oh yeah. That looks to me like a non-imperialist, loving society with a kind government!

Okay, for the MORONS out there who don't realize it, here is a comparison:
Kiss:

Not kiss:

Lame clowns:

Not lame clowns:


Got it?

Let's face it: things are changing.  Some things are for the better, many for the worse.  On the surface, we appear to have more equality, and in general, society appears to have a better quality of life.  Dig a little deeper though, you'll see what's really happening.
We've come a long way from a time when immigrants, women, blacks and the working class were pressed down under the thumb of large corporations and corrupt local governments.  The problem is that we never reverted after giving control to the government.  I hear the socialists cry out for revolution.  I hear them sing the praises of Stalin, Zedong and Castro.  What have we to praise them for?  Mass slaughter of the very people they claimed to help?  We can't possibly that jaded and ignorant that some would actually willingly trade one oppressive government for another, can we?  The Bolsheviks were SLAUGHTERED after helping Stalin gain power.  The Chinese are held under the iron grip of a dictator who only wishes to control their lives down to the last little detail.  The Cuban people are kept quiet and brutally structured under a totalitarian rule.
These countries are not freer than us.  They aren't under some compassionate shared rule based on the people; they are under the stern fist of dictators.  Why, then, do socialists of today imagine that it would be any different in the US?  Already we see the dangers inherent in allowing a government more control and power.  We see our hard-earned money taken from us and given to those who don't even work.  It's no longer about dragging people from the blows of tyranny faced at the hands of strict factory managers.  With each law passed to protect one group of lazy individuals, we also deal a stern blow to the working class, the very people our socialist friends claim to stand for!
Our working class, those who sweat and burn themselves away every day laboring to fill our lives with the bare necessities, are being shut down more and more every day.  Those who accomplish more because of the laws we have protecting them and giving them a chance are being raped by more and more government control.  Any voice of dissent is silenced by this ever-expanding, ever-socializing government.  Our rights, our freedoms, they're being taken away from us!  These losses are not due simply to corrupt politicians and idiot sycophants feeding off the stream of cash between these politicians and the corporations they conspire with.  These losses are due to complacency and laziness.  We tell ourselves every election that it's either one corrupt politician or another.  We don't vote with our hearts and decide our candidates on their platform anymore.  We go for whoever we hate the least of the two major parties, mainly because so many have been brainwashed into believing that those are our only real choices.  These people aren’t our friends.  They don’t care about our happiness or freedom.  They don’t want us to have choices or live well.  They just want to remain rich and keep their friends rich while they suck the rest of us dry.
Stop sucking up to the stale old ideals and assumed rhetoric of the old parties.  Quit listening to what the democrats and republicans say.  End the incessant pandering to splinter groups and their members who have no clue of what their ideals actually entail.  Don’t jump on every opportunity to make our money easier to come by while making life less enjoyable.  To the Socialists, Anarchists, Republicans, Democrats and Nazis; not a one of you knows what you’re getting into.  Socialists and Nazis especially fail to realize that the very system they work toward would be the system that would turn on them the second they stop paying attention.
It always happens.  Look in history and see what your forbearers didn’t.  The working class fought to bring Socialism to the forefront in Russia.  They were then repaid with censorship, violence and just as much repression as they suffered at the hands of the Czars.  The Germans thought they’d found a leader, a father-figure in Hitler.  He promised to bring the power back to the people, to instill a new feeling of national cooperation and prosperity to the people.  All the brought was war, pain, death, control and fear.  All men who seek power seek it in absolutes.  Your ideals may be pure, but men who take the challenge and rise to power always fail to live the ideals they claim to hold onto.
What do I think?  Our ideals are fine.  It’s our laws and our rulers that need to change.  We have one president who, through his power, places people into positions of power without the approval of the people they are there to serve.  The “checks and balances” of our system only work when ideals are shared by people with different ideologies.  It doesn’t work when all three parts of our government are filled with the same corrupt individuals and the people have no say.  Our government is too big and too autonomous to continue serving its people.  We need to shut down “services” like the FCC while retaining services that are truly needed.  Education is bloated and centralized.  The same school doesn’t work for every city.  The same education isn’t needed for all people.  Re-privatization of the educational sector would work, but only if the government is there to oversee its function and assure equality of opportunity.  The disabled and less fortunate need help, but they don’t need life-support.  We don’t need everything we have, we just need what will keep us safe, healthy and happy.  For a government to assume it can assure all these things to all people is very assumptive.  I say all government decisions be made by the people, not by the elite.  I say we dismantle the democratically crippling “electoral college”.  I say we apply political liposuction to the system and drain it of the fat, leaving only the meat of what is needed.  Give me my guns, my voice, my vote, my privacy, my protection, my choice, my chance, my responsibility.  Give me my freedom back, and with it, I will gladly accept my responsibility.
Those who greedily suckle off the working class, claim it as “their freedom”. However, they fail to realize that their freedom comes with the responsibility to use it properly.  That is what the government is supposed to do.  Protect our freedom and assure that all people use it properly.  They are there to supervise, not to control.  The government is there to help us when we need it, not suck us dry and use that to control us. 
There is nothing inherently wrong with capitalism, just with people.  We are grouped into societies to help care for the welfare of those in our society, but we too often take on burdens of helping people who can’t be helped.  This control and persuasion is evident in almost every facet of life now.  Every day now, you have to worry that the government will take your home and give it to a business, calling it “imminent domain”.  You have to watch what words you use in conversations, lest the government fire you, steal your money and leave you to rot with no hope.  You have to watch what you say in email and letters because this rapidly expanding government is using every excuse it can to spy into your private life.  No longer are controls for the good of the people, they’re for the good of the country and the administration.  The Patriot Act isn’t here to protect us; it’s here to bind us.  Every day we grow more and more comfortable with being oppressed citizens.  We watch as our freedom is stolen from us, and many don’t even care.
I encourage everyone to vote for freedom, rather than forced equality.  Vote for self-reliance rather than government life-support.  Use your vote to speak out loudly, urging the government to take off the shackles which bind us.  Tell them that we work hard for our prosperity and that we will neither bow to corporations, nor will we bow to them.  They aren’t afraid of us anymore, and when you’re not afraid of someone, you don’t listen to them.  We are resources to them.  In 2008, show them that we aren’t just resources.  We are people.  We are strong.  We will be free.  We won’t bow to propaganda and ideals we know don’t work.  I sure as hell will.
Thank you.

Well, I've been back from my vacation for nearly a week now, and I'm going to school on Monday. Things just gotta keep going downhill, don't they?! Anyway, it was a nice trip. I didn't do anything truly unusual this year, other than take a buttload of pictures (which I have graciously turned into a webpage gallery). I'm still considering trying to dig up my rusty Dreamweaver skills to revitalize my website, but I don't know if it'd really be worth it. We'll see eh? Other news: I'm still single, still living at home, and still not liking either fact. Hopefully with school starting, I'll be able to change that sometime soon.

Oh, as for the pictures, they're here: http://www.left-click.org/~dragonx/images/Fort%20Bragg/

I'm leaving in 6 hours to go on vacation at the coast, in case anyone gives a damn.

Just thought I'd let my reader know.

I'll be back next Saturday.

I had originally posted this rant in reply to a thread on Stripcreator.com, but I decided against it. I don't really feel like bringing up more idiotic liberal drivel.

Seems more to me like the government mainly just controls what people do, say, buy and in some ways, think. I don't think that an FCC telling companies what they can and can't do with their own property is protecting much other than christian morality and PC bullshit. I don't think government imposing more taxes to fund private projects is protecting anything but special interests. Mainly, I think that selectively ignoring the constitution is hardly in the people's best interest.

But, hey, maybe I'm completely fucking wrong and I should just accept Big Brother telling me what I can and can't say, making sure people don't earn too much money, keeping the shit of our society from dying off naturally and thus allowing evolution and raping us in the ass when all we want to do is fuck ourselves up once in a while. Maybe we should all earn the same pay despite our skill, be watched every minute of every day and give all our money to the government so it can bungle it up, shovel our money to other countries and tell us that we're all greedy bastards for wanting some kind of "reward" for doing something well.

I embrace our new masters, the bloated, inefficient government incapable of even keeping records of its own transactions, let alone the transactions of all the little committees and programs designed to help us! God knows the public school system is a shining example of great government in action. Hell, we should EXPAND the public school system! Let's raise taxes some more so that everyone can go to college for free! Shit, who needs to pay for anything, we should just take everyone's money right from their paychecks and build up massive, over-spending globs of government morass to control and decide everying in our lives.

After that, just so we can make sure there's never ANY dissent, so that we never have a problem with our mindless, government-controlled, politically-correct mass of bland, perfectly homogonized personalities, we should just all have our minds replaced with computers! Yes! It'll be a utopia where no one will ever feel sad, no one will be poor and no one will ever have to know any polarity, never know anything but happiness, thus making happiness the new neutral! It will be joyous, and then we can all just fade into extinction for lack of genetic diversity and a complete collapse of cultural and intellectual distinction. It will be the perfect communist state.

No more conflict, no more change, no more of that icky struggle and success that previously defined our horrid, primitive race that has barely even escaped its own planetary borders! We will be free to follow every order perfectly.

Yes, yes, I see it now! I love the big government! Make it bigger! More programs to support the lazy, fewer freedoms! We should no longer be a powerful nation, we should be the bitch to the rest of the world and bow down to every whim that a country less powerful than us puts forth. One nation for all other nations.

HOORAY FOR LIBERAL SOCIETY!

Ladies, do you find that you can't find a guy who loves you, treats you with respect? Someone who will listen to you and show you how he feels? If so, STOP FUCKING COMPLAINING TO YOUR SINGLE MALE FRIENDS ABOUT IT. Take a quick fucking look. Go ahead. Look at your single male friends. Are they THAT fucking hideous? Obviously, if you're bitching at them, they're pretty good guys, especially when they're listening to you whine constantly about not being able to find someone.

Further, shut your FUCKING pie hole if one of those single male friends has repeatedly displayed interest in being more than friends. Especially shut your hole when around him. You know what? We actually have feelings too. We want a girl, we want someone to love. But apparently you don't think we have any goddamned feelings.

Well you know what? Fuck you all. If you don't have the common sense and ability to see around you, then you don't even earn my fucking pity.

I been hoping to have a few readers, but it looks like that's not happening. I'm starting to get bored and distracted. I crave attention!! I'm an attention whore! LOVE ME!!! X-)

ARGH! This world has gone nuts.

Okay, I'll admit it. For some reason I am addicted to this stupid online dating site thing, OKCupid (Hey, take my tests! Or don't), and I have noticed an annoying little trend. Aside from the fact that there are almost no girls in my area on there, the few who are there are either bi or taken. Okay, I think anyone who knows me understands my "issues" when it comes to bi girls. I don' thave a problem with 'em personally, it's just that I'd prefer there were fewer of them. My last three girlfriends (and the girl I've been playing around with lately) have all been bi!

But the bisexual thing isn't the problem. There are people joining that site, fresh users I remind you, who are *not* single. WHAT THE HELL? Why join a freaking dating site if you're not single?! Come on people, if you're not single, you have a life. Stop mucking up things for those of us who don't. :P

Alright! I finally finished my paperwork for the VA so I can get money while I'm going to college. Turns out, however, that the paperwork I was fretting over was just the paperwork to get my spendin' money. The fee waiver is still shit I need to do, but at least I don't have a deadline for it.

In other news: I'm going to be a student again! Oh, wait. That's actually the same news in a different paragraph. I think I just broke a few english rules. Aaaaanyway, I think I'm adding up to my typical internet 20-something demographic checklist...

-Livejournal - Check
-Trendy email service - Check
-Personal homepage - Check (sorta)
-Going to college - Check (soon)
-Likes coffee - Check
-Single and unhappy about it - Check!
-Watches some sort of TV show regularly - Check and double check!
-Owns a webcam - Check
-Uses instant messengers - Check x4
-Dating sites - ...Check
-Plays online games - ... nope!

I'm still okay I think! Maybe not though.

Welly welly well my droogies. It would seem it's time for another update from your humble narrator.

Lately, I take issue with the abundance of bisexuality that has sprung up recently. Your sexuality is your business, yeah. But le's be honest here, I doubt that the majority of "bisexuals" are actually bisexual. I'm sorry, but being such does not simply entitle you to screw members of your own gender while you're in a committed relationship, for one thing. Cheating is cheating, whatever your gender. You don't love both genders, you just want to screw everything that moves. That's not being bisexual, that's just being an overly horny person who's not too picky.
A liberal estimate of the homosexual population is about 10%. Some speculate that this number actually includes actual bisexuals. I doubt it, but the fact is still that there are even fewer truly bisexual people. It seems the definition has changed, and I dislike that. Being truly bisexual means you honestly and truly feel the ability to love a member of either gender. It means you don't see what's on the outside, but what's on the inside.
Further confusing the matter are the confused individuals out there. The fence-sitters are pretty bad. Those are the aforementioned sex nuts. They just want to screw anything that moves, basically. That's a nympho, not a bisexual. Make up your damn minds people. Next up, we have who are still not sure what they are really into when it comes to love and sex. This is called "bi-curious". You're curious and unsure about your sexuality if you fit into this category. You still feel the need to try things out. Basically, you're trying to find your place in this orientation-obsessed society and have yourself become obsessed with labeling your own sexuality before the time is right. Finally, there's the worst of the lot, the one I've experienced the most. Younger, mostly girls (but some guys) who have caught hold of the recent trend toward sexual indifference. The ones who treat sex as they would fashion, cars and music. It's "in" to be bisexual these days. And hell, no girl wants to be left off the latest bandwagon. Besides, all the guys are into bi girls, right? It just means they have a chance of getting a threesome! I could frankly rant on for hours about these self-absorbed mental midgets. Toying with your clothes is one thing, toying with love is another.
I can't help but be wary of girls my age claiming to be bisexual. I'm sorry, but if you're not sure of yourself, how am I supposed to be sure of you? Girls, it's not okay to cheat on someone you claim to love, even if it is someone of your own gender.

Well, that's the end of this little rant. As the human torch would say, flame on!

I may not usually show it, but I'm pretty patriotic. Not that I don't think my country has done wrong in the past, it has. But that doesn't mean I can't be a patriot.

That being said, today is my nation's birthday. Anyone who doesn't live in the US, sorry to bother you with my americanism. July 4th, 1776. A great year. The day this country became a country, not just a territory. There were still wars to be fought and there was still strife to be had, but this country was truly born on that day. And here we are, over two hundred years later, still blowing up a little piece of it to celebrate.

This is where my little problem came in. First off, it annoys me that California is so tight about fireworks restrictions. Can't even get bottle rockets legally here! How sucky is that?? But I digress. Mainly, I just wish I'd gotten more stuff to set aflame. I only had a few of those little spinning fireworks. They were kinda cool for the 8 minutes they lasted, but I was disappointed with the Pagoda. More than half of the pagoda failed to go off, and thus, it was a really boring firework. Oh well, there's always next year I guess.

Hope everyone had a good 4th of July and those in other countries, hope you celebrated your country in your own way and had fun!

So, for the first time in a while, I got a little drunk up in Paradise at a friend's house. Now, usually this just ends in me passing out, trying to cook something for the first time and miraculously coming up with something tasty or just confessing my love to someone who is completely uninterested. This time, however, I ended up really fucking with a friend's feelings while drunk. I was looking back on it and going "was that me? That's nothing like the real me... that's drunk me." Now, I wasn't abusive, verbally or physically (well, except for the blisters and cuts all over my fingers from playing guitar and bass a little too hard), but I did screw around with a girl my friend had invited to the party. Nothing serious, and it was not going to be. Just a little making out.

Now, this woman is probably at least one and a half times my age. She also is completely not my type. She's a nice enough woman, but physically she doesn't appeal an intense amount to me. I'm weird, in a sense. She was pretty, but she was a super-skinny, tall, blonde girl, emaciated looking. I personally prefer women who have a little bit of weight to them. It feels so weird to even hug a girl skinnier than me. Almost all of my past girlfriends have outweighed me by at least 10 pounds. A couple are exceptions, but not many.

Anyway, I was drunk, she was drunk, we made out, my friend walked in to see that. He's playing it off like it didn't affect him, but I know how I'd feel if I saw that. I'd be pissed and really bummed out for a while. Though, these days I think I'd get over it pretty quickly. So, this woman is trying to find my tonsils and the whole time, I'm too drunk to stop it all (though not too drunk to stop it if it started going further), and I just keep thinking of who I'd rather be sitting there kissing. That other person, at the party, was a friend I'd known for a while, but never really hung out with or got very close to. I'm just a bit afraid that I've ruined *any* chances I may have had when I did that.

God damn, I fuck things up a lot. I may not really be an asshole, but I sure do some fucked up things at times. Scary part is, people seemed to enjoy talking to me more while they thought I was just a callous ass who didn't care that he may or may not have just hurt his friend's feelings. That disturbs me even more than my behavior. I felt liked at the party. I felt like I wasn't just some outsider for once. I hope that's not what it always takes to be the "life of the party". Being a dick is something I can do, but not without abandoning most of who I am.

But, besides all that, it was a fun party. We blasted music from my computer for several hours, drank more beers a person than there were people at the party and had some tasty steak goodness. I met new people, saw old friends I hadn't talked to in a while, and we played some music (hence the injuries recieved). Also, no one got teabagged! Hurrah! Then again, there really wasn't anyone in that magic sphere of inebriety who was capable and willing to do it.

I wouldn't mind having another party like that, but next time, my tongue is staying in my mouth.

Also, next time I need to bring more clam dip.

1. Have you ever fallen off your bed? Yeah. Ever fallen off a bunk bed? It really hurts. Not so much these days though.

2. Do you sleep on the floor? Only if there isn't a bed available. Which will likely be this weekend.

3. Have you ever gone camping? Just about every year.

4. Do you like to play hopscotch? Nope. I got man parts down below.

5. What do you do when it rains? Wait for a really big lightning strike to wipe out much of Orland.

6. Are you on a computer,laptop,etc.? Desktop would be the proper term, Windows XP. Macs are PCs too, remember that.

7. Where are you now? The 4th quadrant.

8. How many surveys have you done today? Ummm, this one.

9. Whats the last movie you've seen? Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. I'm not a huge theater-goer anymore.

10. Do you go to summer school? I did when I was still in highschool.

11. Do you go to camp? Did once, never again!

12. Have you ever played rugby? Ummm, that's like football without pads, right?

13. Have you ever played basketball when it was storming? I hate basketball.

14. Are you a cheerleader? Questions like that get men killed in bars.

15. What's your favorite college? College is college.

16. What infant school did you go to? Mill Street I guess....

17. Primary School? Fairview, CK. Price. What a small world eh?

18. High School? OHS! GO CONDOMS! Uh, I mean, Trojans. Whatever. It's easy to have school pride when your colors are white and blue.

19. College? One semester of Butte.

20. When was the last time you had a capri sun? Mmm, fake orange juice.

21. Do you wear spirit wear? What, you mean like the KKK? No.

22. Do you sprint when you run? Running is for people who are too lazy to learn how to drive.

23. What are you listening to now? Cradle of Filth - Hallowed by thy Name

24. What color is your cursor? Black, white and shades of grey.

25. Have you ever been to a wedding? A couple.

26. Have you ever worked at a job? Too goddamn many.

27. How many times have you moved? Twice. Once out, once back in again.

28. Do you take medicine? Mmmm, Guiness and Bushmill's, daddy's medicine tastes good.

29. Where have you been out of your country? I've been out of my mind, does that count?

30. Whats the most exotic place you've been to? Ummm, I've only been to one stripper place and I'd hardly call that "exotic". In fact, I'd call it "biohazard".

31. Are your nails painted? Yes. With a coat of paint that doesn't change the color, texture or shine of my nails. Oh wait, no. Never mind.

32. Do you have makeup on? xYESx xBECAUSEx xIx xAMx xAx xGOTHx xFAGx. No, just kidding. Shit, I only wear makeup when I'm on stage.

33. Do you wear glasses? I wear sunglasses sometimes.

34. Do you know anyone that is blind? Nope. But I do like Blind Guardian.

36. Have you ever planted a tree? Oh, I've "planted" a few "trees" in a few "grounds" if you know what I mean. Oranges, you filthy primates. ORANGES.

37. What's your favorite colors? Black and this specific blue, kinda light, kinda greenish, not really teal I guess...

38. Do you think you are popular? The voices in my head really like me. Except Sam. Sam can rot in hell. HEAR THAT SAM? HELL! ROT IN IT.

39. Do you text people? HAH, I don't wanna go spending 10cents for a goddamn 5 word message.

40. Have you ever tried counting to a million? What, only a million? That's hardly a challenge. Though it would be quite boring, so no.

41. Do you read during the summer? I read into things a lot. Oh, I do read websites! I used to read books, but now, I am too easily distracted by things that glow.

42. What is one thing that is turned on all the time? Girls, when they meet me. Ha ha! Self-depreciating humor is hillarious!

43. Do you have asthma? No, but two of our dogs do.

44. Did you ever want braces? I want teeth like Jaws from the James Bond movies. THOSE are fucking braces!

45. Have you ever caught a firefly? I haven't even seen one in my life.

46. Did you ever cut your own hair? It's not *cutting* you philistines. It's SHAVING!

47. Have you been to a palace? I like to think of my room as my palace and myself as the Emperor. Sometimes I like to imagine people come in and I electrocute them. Except one time I almost got arrested for shoving an empty light socket at someone. That would have been very bad.

48. Do you want to be a queen/king? Who the fuck is telling these rumors? I DO NOT EAT THE COCK. Oh. King? Uh, no. I wanna be the Emperor. Or grand, supreme ruler of the universe. Or gay. WAIT, NO, COME BACK! I MEANT HAPPY!

49. What are you wearing? Old torn pants, boxers and socks for some reason.

50. What was the last cd you bought? Hell if I remember. No really, it's a great album. It's by Analgesic Nose Cheese. It's Heavy Slash/Deathgrind Power metal.

51. Have you ever roasted marshmellows? No, but we're getting the Friars Club together next week, we'll discuss it.

52. Have you made a snowman before? Umm, I think I may have been present at the creation of a snowman, and I may have wounded it fatally.

53. Is it snowing? I think even Lassen is having a hard time keeping the snow up in this fucking weather. I WANT MY COLD BACK.

54. Do you have a secret handshake with someone? Yes, wanna learn it? Okay, first, you take off your pants... Oh shit, wrong handshake.

Wait, no more questions? WHAT A GYP! I'm outta this sleazy hotel room.

So what sort of wild outlandish "oh he di'nt" kinda stuff do I have to post to start attracting people? Need I develop an exciting theme? Do I have to be a racist, outspoken political commentor or just be hot? Cuz, I can't do that last one. I could always just post a fake photo or something. Maybe I could talk about all the popular emo music. That'd bring 'em running, right? Bah. Any suggestions?

...to give up your house for less money than a new car so we can turn around and sell the property for 50x the value of the house. Of course, we aren't just going to stop at saying we want or need it, we'll just take it and hand you a little cash to make you complain less.

Well, if by "we" I mean "the government". This recent ruling caught my attention, and it's sickening. I don't understand how the government has any right to your property. Isn't it your stuff? The only forms of government I know of that can take your land and give you a tiny sum of money for it both have the word "socialism" in the name. Socialism and National Socialism, better known as Nazism. That's a big part of the Nazi socioeconomic structure, all property is allowed to individial owners, but the government can take it at the drop of a hat to serve the greater national good. It's a very nationalistic view, and one that is being adopted by our own corrupted government lately.

How can this happen? How did our justices get so fucked up in the head that they would allow this? The dissenting voices were all very eloquent and intelligent in their remarks. Too bad the rest of the Supreme Court thought that the constitution didn't matter anymore.

Oh, don't get me wrong, I still think we have more freedom than most other countries, but if we don't stop this, where is it going to end? Do we have to wait until we have cameras installed in our homes? Do we have to wait until we all have chips that track our every action? Or maybe we should all just plug right into the matrix right now. Then no one would have property, no one would have privacy, no one would be free. That sounds like the America lawmakers want. Sure, we have no specified right to privacy. Nowhere in the constitution are we granted that right. The problem is that lawmakers keep forgetting that rights aren't just limited to what the constitution says. We have more rights than the constitution would have ever been able to guess at. In any case, I don't think we should always have privacy. In our own homes, yes. On the phone, yes. On the internet... well no. Public forums, by definition, aren't private.

In any case, your property is your property. It's not fair that the government can now take your land and give it to a big business. No longer are we safe from corporate mentality. I support capitalism, but if a company can't buy out the land it wants, that's it. The government is here to protect our rights and that's about it. The government has far overstretched its boundaries these days. From forcing people to pay money they will likely never benefit from to controlling what we can and can't say. This is horrible and sickening. But hey, at least we can get rich white girls' dead bodies from some lake in Aruba (that's my guess as to what'll happen).

In any case, goodbye democracy, goodbye freedoms, goodbye America. Hello Nazi Germany Part II. I wonder when they'll start building the concentration camps for people they don't consider real Americans and experiment on them?

I expect 2008 to be the year the US changes its name to the Impirial States of America with Emperor Whoever is in Charge.

I know I should just make this a private thing, but I need to get all this out. There's still some angst and annoyance I need to publically air... though, not so publically as to let it out to the people involved.

Yeah, this is just pointless whining and yammering about the past, stuff I should be over, but there's still a little part of me that's pissed off about it all.

I've been through a lot of shit in relationships. So much has been unfulfilling. Sometimes I just want to screw and leave, but I've discovered somewhat recently that even that doesn't help ease any pain. It's not the same, there's no emotions, it's just fucking. It fills a carnal, physical need. It's something I like to get out once in a while, but it's not nearly enough. So maybe that sounds selfish or something, but it's how I feel.

I've been single for a while now, and my last relationship was hardly that wonderous. Sophia was fun and shared some feelings, but everything about that was wrong. It never would have worked, but it still hurts that I've been left in the cold again. She was too young, too promiscuous and too attached to other people before me for me to ever mean as much to her as I wanted to, as I needed to.

The barren wasteland between her and Breezy was littered with failed experiments in love. Two girls, two complete failures. One was completely uninterested in me, and I should have guessed it. I just needed to get it out of my system, just needed to tell her what I felt. I didn't want to keep looking at her and feeling a certain way without her knowing. She may have just thought I was a weirdo before, after my confession, she knew I was. The other was just a complete and utter failure on my part. Granted, in hindsight she could have been a tad more understanding. I gushed with emotions, emotions that I can barely handle, let alone allow other people bear witness to them. I'd done that before with another girl, and I felt like a moron both times. Why didn't I just keep it in like I usually do? Oh well, that's in the past, my mistakes are gone, I need to learn from them.

Breezy was a waste of flesh, frankly. A man in a woman's body, complete and total. I was under the mistaken impression that she cared about me, when all she wanted was sex. Had I known that in the first place, I wouldn't have had any feelings for her either. It would have been mutual, but she led me on. Any girls reading this, never fucking do that. That is bullshit. Whether the guy is a stone-hearted asshole or a broken-hearted lover, don't do that shit. Frankly, I doubt most girls can even tell when a guy is genuinely feeling something.

Camille... shit. I don't know exactly what to say here. When you go out of you way and spend $30 just to get there and she just ignores you the whole time, forcing you to end up hanging out with her brothers, bored and quite ready to go home, there's not much TO say. She was gorgeous, and the first of four bisexual girls in a row. The latest one doesn't count, I am not dating her. She's what Breezy should have been. We're basically eachother's booty call. Anyway, Camille just isn't what I needed. She is fickle and very strange. So many girls today are fucked up in the head. I don't know nor care whose fault it is, they're still fucked up one way or another. I can understand that problem, especially after dealing with a short phase of being fucked up myself. I started acting like all the other guys, just a nympho who didn't care about feeling anymore, just one feeling. Not emtions.

Savanah... dear God. Anyone who knows me very well knows this story. My first seuxal experience, and my first truly painful breakup. Dumped me on the 4th of July whilst expressing more concern for her dog than for me. Later on started rumors that I raped her. Badmouthed me my entire senior year. Now she's pregnant with a bastard child. Screwed someone I considered a friend and they both hid it from me. Total bullshit. There was so much wrong there. Too soon, too young, too incompatable. Fuck it. She can go ahead and keep lying about the men in her life. I'm sure she'll be a lesbian before she's 30.

Natalie... fucking hell. Maybe if I hadn't screwed up here, the rest up the list ascending wouldn't be there. Who knows? I ended that relationship FAR too fucking early. Stupid, goddamn, motherfucking hormones.

Christy? Hell. I got nothing terrible to say about Christy. She's annoying at times, but then, she *is* a girl. I'm just glad she and Martin are happy together, frankly. She's a good kid.

Hillary... fucking bipolar psycho. Sweet, but she was not worth messing with in hindsight. We were just too young, frankly. And she was too freaky.

PJ... Complete bitch. I personally want to napalm anyone who dates someone else on a bet. I won't waste more than three sentences on her.

Mariah... nothing bad to say here except that her parents suck balls. Mariah, if you somehow read this, and you remember me, James, Orland, please, please get in contact. I don't care what's going on, I just wanna know you're still kicking!

There are other things in there, other girlfriends, other failed dates, other idiocies. I just don't feel like putting most of it up. So, there you go... Read with displeasure.

Am I the only one in the world who honestly doesn't give a shit about Natalie Halloway? So what, some stupid rich girl gets lost in Aruba. Why is this shit national news? You go to another country, you take a chance, plain and simple. Especially so when you're rich and white. Hell, if Michael Jackson went to Aruba, he'd probably get kidnapped before they realized he's really a black male.

We all know she's likely dead, or not on the island anymore. The islanders are really getting sick of the mother, you can tell. Leave those poor people alone, bitch. They don't care about your daughter and they're only playing along because they don't want to deal with the US Media's bullshit.

So, after wallowing in agony within the pits of myspace hell, I'm trying this out. I have no friends on here and no direction to go, so I'm just hoping people find me somehow...